Hello yet again blog-o-sphere. I feel like I've made several of these posts,"sorry its been awhile" " I promise I'll be better about posting new posts" bla bla bla
I've decided that I'm going to start getting in shape. I'm really doing it this time. For some reason I feel like saying that is just like when I say "I promise I'll be better about posting". BUT MAYBE, if I start posting about my fitness progress then I'll have more accountability for both aspects.
Please don't worry, this is not going to turn into a health blog but its just another thing to discuss and to share with you. I've found lately that I need another creative outlet. So here goes..
Day 1: Today I was at work and a lady in her late 30s early 40s came in and she looked good. She was toned, looked healthy and still had good curves. It made me want to go to the gym. Soo I told my boyfriend that I was going to the gym. Throughout the day I was found myself excited to start fresh on my new "get fit" journey.
I got off work about 45mins late, I still had to take the mail to the post office and by the time I got home and changed it was already almost 6:30. I started coming up with all the excuses I usually had, "well its too late maybe I should just go in the morning" "its pretty warm out and I just got done sweating all the way home from work" "I'm pretty hungry, maybe I should start making dinner". Eventually with a little pep talk from my boyfriend, I reluctantly found myself out the door with my iPod in my ears.
First day, done and done. Now the harder part.... going back :/
Monday, September 9, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
It's Been Too Long
It has been to long time since I've graced my blog with my presence Sorry about that. I feel like my mind is always racing with these crazy ideas but then when I get to this space, they've all raced away. Lately I feel like I'm waiting for my life to happen and every time I try to get something going in my life, I fail miserably and am stuck 2 steps back from where I started. so I just sit here and wait, and wait, and wait.
I have the urge to run away today. Just run away from all the stresses of work, all the worries of money, and all the pressures of society. So because I don't have the means or finances to run away, I've mapped out a 3.1 mile run for this evening. I've only ever run about 1.75 without having to stop so I guess we will see how it goes.
I have the urge to run away today. Just run away from all the stresses of work, all the worries of money, and all the pressures of society. So because I don't have the means or finances to run away, I've mapped out a 3.1 mile run for this evening. I've only ever run about 1.75 without having to stop so I guess we will see how it goes.
Monday, March 11, 2013
Random Tangent
I have been itching to make another post but not really sure what to write about. So I'll just go off of my initial premise of the blog, "A Blank Page", just typing and letting my mind take me where ever it takes me... All I'm coming up with is how I think the words "at least" and "a lot" should be one word. I find that I do that a lot. Also for what ever reason I keep accidentally using " instead of ' when making abbreviations. I don't know why but its really getting on my nerves because I feel I type fairly well.
Ok so you don't want to read about my rantings about typing.... I suppose if blogging were easy everyone would do it. Some even make it a career. I would like that if I had more ideas to write about. But sometimes I feel like the subjects I think I should write about, others wouldn't enjoy. Or they would read but then afterwards feel like they just wasted 10 minutes of their life reading through a garbage post.
I used to write in my notebooks all the time when I couldn't pay attention in class because I had something on my mind. It always seemed to help get it out of my head and on paper. Sometimes I'll come across an old notebook with random pages written on, and read what was on my mind that day. Random pages is always key because if someone found your book they would usually only look at the end or the beginning. Sometimes I would read an entry and think "wow, I really was crazy." Other ones I would laugh and some I would even fill sad for the past me. Which is kind of ridiculous because whatever it was, I already went through it. Why in the heck would I make myself feel that again. But it does remind me of where I've been and how far I've come. So that part is helpful.
I guess if you can take anything away from this, if you feel you ever have some things on your mind that you can't talk about with someone, just write it down. After you write it down, don't re-read it, just close the notebook or put away the paper. Don't throw it away just yet, it could help you later down the road. Also if you just throw it away it might give you a negative feeling. It doesn't have to be in perfect handwriting or grammatically correct. Just get all of those thoughts on paper. Who knows, maybe as you're writing you'll come up with an answer or a solution that you wouldn't have thought of before.
Ok so you don't want to read about my rantings about typing.... I suppose if blogging were easy everyone would do it. Some even make it a career. I would like that if I had more ideas to write about. But sometimes I feel like the subjects I think I should write about, others wouldn't enjoy. Or they would read but then afterwards feel like they just wasted 10 minutes of their life reading through a garbage post.
I used to write in my notebooks all the time when I couldn't pay attention in class because I had something on my mind. It always seemed to help get it out of my head and on paper. Sometimes I'll come across an old notebook with random pages written on, and read what was on my mind that day. Random pages is always key because if someone found your book they would usually only look at the end or the beginning. Sometimes I would read an entry and think "wow, I really was crazy." Other ones I would laugh and some I would even fill sad for the past me. Which is kind of ridiculous because whatever it was, I already went through it. Why in the heck would I make myself feel that again. But it does remind me of where I've been and how far I've come. So that part is helpful.
I guess if you can take anything away from this, if you feel you ever have some things on your mind that you can't talk about with someone, just write it down. After you write it down, don't re-read it, just close the notebook or put away the paper. Don't throw it away just yet, it could help you later down the road. Also if you just throw it away it might give you a negative feeling. It doesn't have to be in perfect handwriting or grammatically correct. Just get all of those thoughts on paper. Who knows, maybe as you're writing you'll come up with an answer or a solution that you wouldn't have thought of before.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
My Valentine's Day History
So in honor of the upcoming (faux) holiday, I thought I would take a look back at my history of Valentine's Days. It all started in 2002. I just had my first kiss the January before. But the guy I was dating at the time decided that he would break up with me on Feb 2nd. 2/2/2002 to be exact, which started my hatred of the number 2 but that's a story for another day. So although I thought that was going to be my first Valentine's Day that I celebrated with a significant other, it was not. Later that year, I moved to another school and started dating a guy that fall. So in February of 2003, I got to celebrate my first Valentine's day with a boy (imagine little-high-school-girl giggle here).
The guy that I had my "first Valentine's" with, I dated for almost 5 year so there were lots of V-days in there. I do know that on my first one I got a teddy bear that he had sprayed with his cologne and a card (and some flowers?) The first and second get mixed up. On one of them I made him a 2 layered, heart shaped, german chocolate cake with the coconut frosting because that was his favorite dessert. I brought it to school with me to surprise him with it. That was disaster. He had to leave school early to go to a wrestling meet and couldn't take it with him because it would have been a mess and it he couldn't eat it because he had to "make weight". I don't remember what I ended up doing with it, I just remember that I was extremely embarrassed and crushed that I went through all the effort to make him, what I thought was a thoughtful gift, to be essentially turned down.
The other V-days I spent with him all kind of blend together. But I did some mild digging through my boxes of old stuff and 2005 Valentines day he was going to college down in KS and I was still in high school. I don't remember what happened but, there is a sad face :( on that day in my planner. So I'm going to guess that it didn't end well. In 2006 we both would have been in Kearney going to school. I found a planner for this year and apparently we "broke up" on 2/9 that year. I'm not sure when we got back together but I know we were back together mid March. I don't remember what happened in 2007. But apparently nothing spectacular happened because I can't remember them. I'm sure back then I could tell you exactly what happened.
In 2008, I believe I was single. In 2009, I was "seeing" a guy but we just went out for dinner a couple days before or a couple of days after. I think it was at that dinner that we both realized we didn't have much in common. The February of 2010 may very well be my last "single" Valentines Day. I believe I spent that one getting annihilated off of a mixed drink recipe I threw together called "Love Potion". But as I recall, it was a pretty awesome night.
In February 2011 I celebrated my first Valentine's Day with my current boyfriend. It also happened to be our 6 month anniversary. He got me a dozen red roses that were delivered to me at work and then we went out to Red Lobster for dinner. He got there early so that he could put our names on the list because it was over an hour wait. I remember walking up to the restaurant and seeing him standing there in his suit jacket and button up shirt. He was so handsome, he literally took my breath away. We were planning on seeing a movie after word but with how long everything took, we just ended up postponing that part of the date. Our second Valentine's Day he had another dozen roses delivered to me at work but this time they were beautifully multi-colored roses. Then for dinner we decided to skip the long waits at the restaurants and stay at home. We made lasagna together, chocolate covered strawberries for dessert and a bottle of champagne we had left over from New Years Eve. We even ate most of it by candlelight. It was a very romantic evening.
Now it's our third Valentine's together and I feel like a kid the day before Christmas. I don't even care what he gets me. I'm just so excited knowing that tomorrow night we get to have a night where we cook a special dinner together. And looking back at all the crumby valentine's days that I have had and it just makes me that much more grateful that I have such a loving man in my life.
So to those of you out there that are single, I suggest searching for a fun drink you can mix and get drunk off of, getting a group of single friends together and play some good ol' fashion drinking games. You'll get the sweet sappy Valentine's Day another year. To those of you who are in a relationship, I hope yours is filled with love and happiness. Just don't forget to continue the trend throughout the year :)
The guy that I had my "first Valentine's" with, I dated for almost 5 year so there were lots of V-days in there. I do know that on my first one I got a teddy bear that he had sprayed with his cologne and a card (and some flowers?) The first and second get mixed up. On one of them I made him a 2 layered, heart shaped, german chocolate cake with the coconut frosting because that was his favorite dessert. I brought it to school with me to surprise him with it. That was disaster. He had to leave school early to go to a wrestling meet and couldn't take it with him because it would have been a mess and it he couldn't eat it because he had to "make weight". I don't remember what I ended up doing with it, I just remember that I was extremely embarrassed and crushed that I went through all the effort to make him, what I thought was a thoughtful gift, to be essentially turned down.
The other V-days I spent with him all kind of blend together. But I did some mild digging through my boxes of old stuff and 2005 Valentines day he was going to college down in KS and I was still in high school. I don't remember what happened but, there is a sad face :( on that day in my planner. So I'm going to guess that it didn't end well. In 2006 we both would have been in Kearney going to school. I found a planner for this year and apparently we "broke up" on 2/9 that year. I'm not sure when we got back together but I know we were back together mid March. I don't remember what happened in 2007. But apparently nothing spectacular happened because I can't remember them. I'm sure back then I could tell you exactly what happened.
In 2008, I believe I was single. In 2009, I was "seeing" a guy but we just went out for dinner a couple days before or a couple of days after. I think it was at that dinner that we both realized we didn't have much in common. The February of 2010 may very well be my last "single" Valentines Day. I believe I spent that one getting annihilated off of a mixed drink recipe I threw together called "Love Potion". But as I recall, it was a pretty awesome night.
In February 2011 I celebrated my first Valentine's Day with my current boyfriend. It also happened to be our 6 month anniversary. He got me a dozen red roses that were delivered to me at work and then we went out to Red Lobster for dinner. He got there early so that he could put our names on the list because it was over an hour wait. I remember walking up to the restaurant and seeing him standing there in his suit jacket and button up shirt. He was so handsome, he literally took my breath away. We were planning on seeing a movie after word but with how long everything took, we just ended up postponing that part of the date. Our second Valentine's Day he had another dozen roses delivered to me at work but this time they were beautifully multi-colored roses. Then for dinner we decided to skip the long waits at the restaurants and stay at home. We made lasagna together, chocolate covered strawberries for dessert and a bottle of champagne we had left over from New Years Eve. We even ate most of it by candlelight. It was a very romantic evening.
Now it's our third Valentine's together and I feel like a kid the day before Christmas. I don't even care what he gets me. I'm just so excited knowing that tomorrow night we get to have a night where we cook a special dinner together. And looking back at all the crumby valentine's days that I have had and it just makes me that much more grateful that I have such a loving man in my life.
So to those of you out there that are single, I suggest searching for a fun drink you can mix and get drunk off of, getting a group of single friends together and play some good ol' fashion drinking games. You'll get the sweet sappy Valentine's Day another year. To those of you who are in a relationship, I hope yours is filled with love and happiness. Just don't forget to continue the trend throughout the year :)
Monday, January 21, 2013
Blast from the past
I've always heard this expression but never really understood it until the other day. I was in a store and I saw someone from my past, it took me completely off guard, it was if I had been blasted right back to my past where I once knew this person. I never got to know this person very well but I immediately started to thinking about how they were doing, did they have kids, what were they doing in Lincoln, did they live here? Then I started thinking about her family and how they were doing. Then it my mind took a trip to where I was in my life when I met her and all the things I had been through since. It felt like I went back years in my mind and contemplated every decision I've made since we met. I feel that this is a very short description compared to what my mind went through that day. It was crazy! Even though I didn't say anything to her, I was definitely blasted by the past.
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